Kerala stands up to its reputation as a progressive, near-socialist oasis in the southern tip of India. For the first time in months, I saw an abundance of women walking around town laughing and literally letting their hair hang down.
The streets are clean and well paved. People are happy and polite and best of all very accepting and respectful of us as foreigners.
Marci and I took the bus from Trivandrum (the capitol) into the jungle nature reserve, Neyyar Dam.
We walked up to the Ashram with two other Americans in the peace of birds chirping and lake water gently hitting the shore. Once at the Ashram, I immediately felt like I was at summer camp for big kids. I organized my things with my twelve other new roomies in the Jubilee Women’s dorm. At 6:00 on the dot, we were called to dinner with bells, chanting and enthusiastic clapping. With about 100 other yogis, I filed into the dining hall and took a seat on the floor behind my designated banana leaf (aka plate).
In total silence (for better digestion), the servers walked the rows of hungry guests dishing out rice and four to five deeeelicious onion, garlic and dairy-free vegetarian accompaniments from large metal buckets.

Following Indian tradition, we devoured our meal with our RIGHT hand. After dinner, I curiously attended my first evening Satsang which consisted of 1/2 hour of meditation and an hour and a half of a cult-like chant session conducted by the orange-clad Swamis seated on stage.
The first morning at the Ashram, we were shaken awake by the ringing of bells at 5:20 a.m. To exercise our minds for meditation, we counted our footsteps in silence as we walked around the lake formed by Neyyar Dam. After a failed attempt to meditate on the lake shore, I watched the sunrise light up the jungled Agastya Peak and Sadyadu Hills contmeplating this strange place I’ve commited to.
“Ashram” is a Sanskrit word meaning “refuge from the pressures of daily life.” The Sivananda Yoga Ashram also advertises “a safe space for personal development and the pursuit of spiritual ideals.” Yoga itself is a much more complex than the western interpretation of exercise and stretching. It is an all-encompassing balance of mind, body and spirit. The Sivananda school of yoga believes this balance is achieved by carefully tending the mind’s vehicle (aka the body) through healthy vegetarian eating and yoga asanas and cleansing and nurturing the soul (the body’s passenger) through Karma Yoga (selfless service) and chanting. It is believed that this balance is necessary for the mind (the body/vehicle’s driver) to succesfully complete its path to self-realization. From our introduction we learned that this enlightenment does not come easily – the Ashram strictly enforces a mandatory daily schedule:
5:20 a.m. wake up bells
6:00-7:30 morning Satsang (group meditation, chanting)
7:30-8:00 Tea time
8:00-10:00 morning Asana yoga (ie physical yoga positions)
10:00-10:30 Brunch
11:00-12:00 Karma Yoga (selfless service, aka chores)
2:00-3:15 Lecture
3:30-6:00 Evening Asana yoga
6:00-6:30 Dinner
8:00-10:00 Evening Satsang
To “alleviate” visitors of outside pressures, cell phones are strictly prohibited and guests need hard-earned permission to visit town for internet or a break. Women are expected to follow a conservative dress code: no attire that shows the shoulders, chest, mid-drift or knees, nothing form-fitting and fully covering clothes when swimming in the lake (ugh!).
In the beginning, a day in Ashram life felt busy but also relaxing. Rising before dawn, those who cannot sleep off the wake-up bell sit in the early morning darkness of Shiva Hall “practicing” meditation. The moderator gently coaches everyone: sit comfortably in a cross-legged position. Take a few deep breaths and clear your mind then relax your breathing until you begin to meditate. In my failed attempts, I translated this to mean sit in complete boredom for a half hour. Once the sun was up, we begin the daily chants by enthusiastically beating drums and tamborines while repeating Hindu mantras sung by the Swami (leader). Meals are infrequent but surprisingly savory – I generally take four to five servings due to my preoccupations about only eating twice a day.
My entire stay, I was lucky enough to have the glamorous Karma Yoga job of cleaning the bathrooms in the camping area. The job isn’t as bad as it sounds since in India, the toilets are of the squat variety (ie you a hole in the ground) and the shower sprays straight into the the bathroom…no need to waste resources on a bathtub or other divider. The asana classes are amazing. My sore muscles stubbornly cooperated the first three days. By now it feels as though every internal system works in perfect unity – muscles and bones move in harmony and my fingers happuly reach my toes.
Lecture is generally something light such as “What is Humanities Purpose?” or “The validity of Intuition.” Everyone is friendly and optimistic, interested in eachother’s journeys and aspirations both inside and outside of India. Aside from Marci, I have not met many Americans; it is now apparent that they are all here.
At the start it seemed as though the common purpose of healthy mind and body trumped the constraints of the rules and strict schedule. However as the week rolled on, the rigid schedule religious Hindu undertones start to get to people – my dorm dropped from twelve ladies to five.
On one side, I loathe the control and unwelcomed discipline. On the other side, I understand how external indulgences and a free-flowing schedule can have a negative effect on the healthful rejuvenation the Ashram stands for.
Regardless, I soon decided that I prefer my liberal existence to the Ashram’s discipline and befriended other rebels. Wei (from Kansas City) figured out how to jump the Ashram wall to surf the internet during lecture. Our dorm made a habit of following the steps to prepare for Satsang while under supervision until it was safe to hide out listening to jazz and playing scrabble or watching old episodes of Entourage on Wei’s laptop.
We would work together to sneak boys in while everyone was meditating. Worst of all, our newly formed American constituency couldn’t resist eating bottomless peanut butter to pollute our healthy eating.
During our way too short mid-day break, I started to love my escape into the Neyyar Dam Nature Reserve. Multiple footpaths cut through the seemingly unpopulated jungle but always ended at a small red-tile roof hut. For hours I would choose footpath after footpath and uncover happy families, rubber tree plantations, white washed temples and endless mountains. I don’t doubt that these distractions from discipline are killing my yogic development and spiritual growth but these distractions also carry much more laughter and smiles…I’ll take the latter.
Feeling flexible enough, Marci and I decided to leave with Wei and Amy (another San Franciscan) on day 13, a Friday. Through rumors and then an official announcement, we discovered that a transportation strike on Friday would impede our move from the Ashram. Seeing our dreams of sleeping in and indulging in worldy vices slip away, we booked a taxi to leave Thursday night. We watched traditional South Indian Kahtakali dancers at the Ashram for an hour then embarked on the road to freedom at 10:30 pm.
Our white 50’s style was suspicioulsy question twice by the police in their attempt to show control over the strike. WE arrived to the cliffed beached of Varkala by 1am and were soon sleeping soundly knowing that the discipline and chanting of the Ashram were behind us – our adventure was to recommence!